So as I mentioned in my last post I went to bed at 3 and was up at 7. So as you can imagine I was quite tired Saturday morning. Sleep is something I have struggled with over the years but I have had help with it in the last couple of years that have made it much better. So at this stage I wasn’t concerned about it. I heated up my burger for breakfast, it was even better than yesterday, the headed off to cricket.
I had some issues at cricket in the morning thanks to my teams opponents and their parents complaining about the umpiring. It weighed heavily on me after the match and I felt like I was close to bursting into tears. Thats when I did start to worry about my lack of sleep. It was likely I was falling into another bout of depression. Later in the day I would be even more sure.
When we got home from cricket I had a egg and salad lettuce wrap which I am sure was delicious but I was really eating without realising as I worried about the mornings events. I decided to make an unofficial l complaint at this stage and sent a long message explaining everything to the club president. I thought this might help me to feel better, but it didn’t have much effect at all.
I then headed down town where Leanne and the kids were. The kids were to busy to realise but Leanne realised something wasn’t right. This is where I knew I become even more sure that things weren’t right. We were in the food court and all I wanted to do was go to the chinese restaurant and pig out on all my favourites. I didn’t though, I was able to stay strong, but how long will I be able to if I fall into a deep state of depression?
When we got home I shared a bag of pork crackle with Leanne and the kids and then had a nap. We all went to watch Taylah play and umpire netball that evening and got home around 9. Knowing this would be the case we had preplanned dinner and bought a hot chook when we were out earlier. I enjoyed our dinner of chicken and salad and went straight to bed.
The good news is I slept well even though I was up early for Taylah and I to travel to Brisbane. An hour earlier than normal as she had to be there an hour earlier. I was still tired though as I kept on nodding off on the way, luckily Taylah is good at driving now that it’s not a problem although I would rather not have nodded off.
I ate some pork crackle chips throughout the day while watching her play. Around 1 I had leftover chicken and salad for lunch. We left Brisbane around 4. We stopped to get a drink at a fuel station and I got another packet of pork crackle as I was really hungry. I felt guilty after eating it though.
We got home around quarter to 6 and the house smelled delicious as Leanne was cooking a roast lamb. We ate relatively early and Leanne had also made a keto cheesecake for dessert that I was looking forward to. Unfortunately I didn’t like it so I didn’t eat mine. Everyone else ate theirs so it mustn’t have been to bad.
I went to bed quite early and I was thinking Saturday may have just been a bad day due to the lack of sleep as I felt content with things. I was looking forward to weighing in tomorrow. I feel like I am going to get a good result. I am not sure why, I just do, I feel slimmer for some reason.