Another pretty boring day again today. No breakfast as usual. A pork crackle snack about 11. I had lunch around 3:30. It was leftovers from last nights steak and salad. Then off to Ipswich for Taylah’s cricket training. We got home about 9 O’clock. Leanne had deboned some chicken thighs and served them with I don’t know what really (as she was already in bed) over the top and a side of cauliflower and broccoli. It was quite good and I was happy with the thighs as I prefer them over breasts (only on chickens though).
I went for a 20 minute walk while Taylah was training and tomorrow I hope to remember to take a comparison photo of myself to see if I can notice any difference.
Another non-eventful fairly easy day. Although my appetite was a little higher today than it has been. I actually ate my lunch mid-morning, which was some of the leftover steak and salad from last night. I had a snack of pork crackle about half past 2 and again at 6. I need to get back on to the almonds I think if I want to have a second snack. At least I have stayed away from eating a whole packet of pork crackle chips.
For dinner Leanne made some cabbage concoction with mince and bacon. It was quite nice. She also tried to put some of the mixture inside the keto pizza dough and while a good effort it was a little uninspiring. To much dough to mixture ratio and maybe missing some soy sauce or something for dipping. It wasn’t terrible, I just enjoyed the cabbage by itself more than I did in the dough.
I got a 20 minute walk in today and I planned on doing another at Taylah’s cricket training at Ipswich this evening but it was called off because of rain. So that is two evenings in a row that I have been home, I could easily get use to this.
Still not eating breakfast. I should probably stop mentioning that since it is just about everyday. I had some real pork crackle for a snack about 11. Then I didn’t eat again until until about 4. I had a keto friendly quiche that was quite nice. As per normal Taylah had cricket training in Ipswich so we headed down there just after I ate. I had already had a 25 minute walk during the day so i decided not to have one down there. After the sun went down I thought I probably should go for a walk, I was doing nothing else. However remembering the red-bellied black snake from last week made me change my mind. At least in daylight I can see what I am stepping on.
For dinner Leanne had made a dish called Keto Bacon Cheeseburger casserole. Although personally I didn’t think it tasted like a cheeseburger (needed mustard in my opinion) it was absolutely delicious. Personally I thought it was very similar to a lasagna, but maybe even tastier. I have also been good this week as far as grazing goes and I haven’t been any hungrier for it. So this would suggest to me that I was grazing out of boredom rather than hunger.
Pretty much the usual weekend for me. Up early Saturday for cricket, no breakfast again. Came home around half past 11 and I had a small chicken drumstick. We went shopping then and had an interesting afternoon. Taylah has her school formal in February next year and is going with a friend of hers. They had to meet each other at the shops to buy some supplies for a class party they are having next week. She has also been asked by another boy she went to primary school with to accompany him to his school formal. He also met them at the shops and it amused Leanne and I to watch Taylah shopping with both her formal dates.
While shopping I shared a packet of pork crackle with Leanne and Hayden and thats all I ate until dinner time. Although I did take Taylah through the Macca’s drive through for something to eat and had to sit beside her in the car while she ate it. Taylah had to play and umpire netball so it was quite late by the time we got home and I was starving. Dinner was bacon and eggs with mushrooms, hollandaise sauce on cloud bread. I have heard a lot of good things about cloud bread, in that it is the best alternative bread recipe for keto. To be honest I thought it was crap. It tasted like a bland omelette. Caitlin made it and wasn’t happy with it while making it. I don’t know if she made a mistake or something but baking is something she is very good at. I don’t think I will be looking to try it again.
Sunday morning I was up early again as Taylah had to be in Ipswich for cricket. I had prepared our food the night before. One thing I love is crackers served with cheese, kabana, pickled onions, etc. So I had this idea to do up a platter for our lunch. I cut up some cheese, kabana, salami, pickles, and pickled onions (check what type you use the coloured ones are higher in carbs). For crackers I used pork crackle chips (there are some keto recipes out there for crackers). Leanne had also bought some watermelon the day before and believe it or not, it is one of the fruits you can have on keto albeit limited. I had cut it up last night (which led to me grazing again) and filled a small container full for both of us. I had a small share of the watermelon at about 10am and nibbled on the platter throughout the day.
We got home around quarter to 5 and I pretty much fell fast asleep on the couch. Dinner was corned meat with that delicious keto white sauce. I knew I had probably over eaten all week but I felt like dessert. Caitlin made some keto pancakes with blueberries and cream. They were pretty good but I did feel guilty afterwards as it wasn’t really needed. Also you are meant to limit your fruit content and I had basically had none since starting the program. Now I have had it three times in two days. I grazed through the night again, it is really getting out of control. Well tomorrow will show how bad my behaviour has been.
I feel like I might be eating to much this week. I am not eating anything I shouldn’t but maybe to much of what I should. A good loss of weight can cause you to be a little lax or at least I know it can cause me to be. The good thing at the moment is that it is not making me feel like it would be alright to have something I shouldn’t. I am not thinking oh it would be alright if I ate a burger and some chips because I have been doing well, because that would be a gateway to putting all the weight back on.
Al l had to eat for most of the day was some pork crackle. Around half past 3 I ate my lunch which was a sausage salad which was quite enjoyable. I am having pickles in most of my salads and I am enjoying them immensely.
Taylah had cricket training in the evening at Ipswich. I decided to have a walk while she was training as I hadn’t had any exercise for the day yet. Walking around Ivor Marsden Ovals where she trains can be quite risky thanks to the wildlife. Mainly kangaroos. Now I can here all you people not from Australia and even some from here saying kangaroos are cute, how could they be dangerous. A kangaroo cornered or feeling in danger is capable of doing extreme damage, even killing a person. They are extremely strong animals with sharp claws. Realistically I don’t feel any danger from them, as I plan to stay away from them and I know there first thought is to stay away from me. There is just that many at Ivor Marsden that you need to be watchful to make sure you don’t accidentally corner one or encroach to closely to where they feel the need to defend themselves or their joeys.
Like I said I wasn’t really worried about the kangaroos but I was keeping an eye on them just in case. I was coming to the end of my hour walk when I crossed paths with something way more deadly. A highly venomous red-bellied black snake. My path would have had me walk right over him. Luckily I spotted him about 5 metres away. Normally red-bellied blacks are quite docile snakes unless it is breeding season. I watched this one for a while, taking some video and photos. He was well aware I was there but he was as cautious as I was, taking his time to head wherever he was going. Who would of thought getting a little bit of exercise could be so dangerous.
After my exciting walk we headed home to Toowoomba and stopped for a drink on the way home, where I had another packet of pork crackle. I really thinking my eating is getting out of hand. I ate the whole 50gram packet which I haven’t being doing, normally having up to 3 snacks out of the one packet.
Dinner was chicken legs with zucchini stuffed with cream cheese, cauliflower, bacon and mozzarella. I didn’t look very appealing on the plate and I was a little disappointed but once I ate it, it was quite delicious.
I skipped breakfast again this morning. I guess I am spoilt as normally Leanne makes breakfast because she wakes up earlier than me as she starts work earlier. There is no reason why I can’t make my own but I just don’t. Breakfast has never been a meal I am fond of eating early in the morning. In the past I have forced myself to eat something just because we are suppose to apparently. Anyway at this stage it is not affecting my overall appetite.
Taylah made a chicken caesar salad for lunch that was quite nice but I didn’t eat that until near 3 o’clock. I did have some pork crackle for a snack around 11 though.
Taylah’s cricket training in Ipswich was cancelled tonight which I find quite annoying. Don’t get me wrong the thought of not having to drive for over an hour each way is nice but it means I am now available for another commitment I was happy to avoid. Tonight was my son Hayden’s award night for school. Now people are going to probably think what a bad parent not wanting to go to your son’s awards night and you might be fair with that perception. However let me clarify, I love nothing more than watching my children participate in these type of events. Unfortunately this one normally goes for about 3 hours and beside the two times my son is on the stage for a total of about 10 minutes it is boring. Actually that is not completely true, there is plenty of other entertaining stuff in between the boring stuff but not enough to make up for the boredom. Close to 3 hours seating in the same seat is quite painful for me. As I have mentioned before I am fat everywhere except my arse. I would kill for just a little bit of that fat to cushion my arse, but alas that is not the case.
The real problem came from how late we got home from this event. I was absolutely starving and was looking forward to what Caitlin my middle child had cooked for dinner why we were out. Well due to the event going overtime dinner looked quite uninviting and it really pissed me off. It wasn’t Caitlin’s fault or even really the schools fault. It was mainly mine for not eating enough during the day and my depression issues were playing a part. I could feel myself starting a downer, falling deeper into that dark whole and as I have said before food has been my emotional crutch at these times. I had already snapped up Taylah and Hayden in the car on the way home and I knew I was angrier than I had a right to be. I slammed my plate down on the kitchen bench and said I am not eating this shit and went and sulked on the couch. I haven’t been like this for a while and I was upset for my behaviour as well as the anxiety of not knowing how long will this bout last.
After sitting on the couch I played Red Dead for about 45 minutes and went to bed without eating dinner. I did eat a thick slice of salami but that was all. I tried to take the positive out of the fact that this may just help me lose more weight and I was just hoping I would wake up feeling better in the morning.
I started Saturday with two small pieces of bacon and an egg. At ten I went to play golf which took a couple of hours. It was a handy bit of exercise at this stage of the journey and although it is only light exercise I was exhausted.
So the first big test of the day came up after the game, time for our lunch of steak burgers and beer. So I was very strong, and only ate steak, onion and salad, no bread rolls. Also I drank a zero sugar coke while playing and a powerade zero after the game.
The next big test was back at the coaches house. Beer, chips and dip flowing I was no chance of surviving this. However it turns out I was. I didn’t have one beer and I only had a tiny bit of scotch and I didn’t even want that, but my teammate had bought an expensive bottle and wouldn’t let me get away without tasting it. I had two sips and then gave it to Ben to finish. As far as the snacks go I only had a few pieces of Kabana and some cheese cubes which kept me satisfied all afternoon.
By this stage I was quite pride of myself and was starting to think I was indestructible. The third and final test the pizza would not catch me out. Something incredible happen and this may sound like an unlikely story. We didn’t order pizza. Every year we order pizza but not this year. The only reason I could come up with is that because I hadn’t scoffed down all the snacks other people got enough to eat and so pizza wasn’t needed.
I was quite hungry by the time I got home at half past seven. Leanne wasn’t home as she had taken Taylah to netball. So I decided to cook pork chops and made an experimental paprika and mushroom sauce. It was delicious and satisfying.
Sunday I was on the road early. I once again had bacon and eggs. I was off to Ipswich with Taylah who was playing a match against Sandgate Redcliffe. I had store bought pork crackle chips for a snack and I had made a salad with pork for lunch. It was a shit of a day with the weather but I had no dramas food wise.
Back in Toowoomba we had roast pork for dinner with cauliflower bake and keto friendly gravy. After dinner I had one of those little cheesecake fat bombs and I felt well nourished.
I am looking forward as well as apprehensive about the weigh in the morning. I know it is stating the obvious but I am really hoping for a good result.