A bad day all round today. I woke up feeling quite unwell. Leanne did also and came home from work early. However that is not my issue. My issue is i put on a 100 grams. I am not dealing well with this and don’t have much to say on the issue at the moment. I need time to reflect.
The usual Saturday morning for me. I was up early for cricket. I was apprehensive about it as it was the second part of the match that was played last Saturday and I had put in a complaint about the behaviour of some of the other team’s players and supporters. However everything was going fine until one of their players again was disrespectful. It ended up in me having an argument with their coach. I am not a big fan of confrontation so I was in a very depressed type of mood after that. I think this may have had an affect on my eating habits for the rest of the weekend or I am conveniently using it as an excuse.
I didn’t eat anything I shouldn’t have but just ate to much. Leanne and I went out for lunch after cricket as we had no kids. My mood wasn’t the best which is a real pity as we don’t get a lot of time with just each other. We did however have a nice lunch of steak and salad.
One of my favourite things to cook on the weekend is my version of Kentucky fried chicken. I have perfected my mix of herbs and spices and is very hard to tell any difference from actual KFC. So on Saturday evening I decided I would try to adapt my recipe to keto. I found a fried chicken keto recipe and then just adapted it to my recipe. The first batch I did was to spicy, so I did another batch increasing the amount of almond flour I used in the breading and I was pretty happy with how it came out. It wasn’t as good as my normal recipe but it was pretty close. I served it with a keto coleslaw Leanne made. The problem was while cooking I was taste testing and grazing the whole time which means I ate way more than I should have.
Sunday morning we were off to Brisbane for Taylah to play cricket. We had some left over fried chicken with the keto coleslaw. We also did up a platter of salami, kabana, pickled onions, stuffed olives and camembert cheese. We used pork crackle chips for crackers. It felt like I ate all day which is not a good thing. I am not sure why but I feel as if my appetite has increased and I am concerned that this extra eating is going to have a negative affect on this weeks weigh in.
Even when we got home that evening, I snacked on some more fried chicken that we left at home while Caitlin cooked bacon and eggs for dinner. I am really struggling to stop grazing Why is it a real problem all of a sudden? Anyway I am not looking forward to tomorrow’s weigh in because of this, but there is nothing I can do about that now. I will just have to be better next week.
Woke up this morning not feeling very well. I felt dizzy, a little nauseous and I could shit through the eye of a needle at 40 paces (excuse the vulgarity, it was one of my late Grandmother’s favourite phrases). As far as being sick goes this type is one I would prefer just at the moment. This probably sounds a little weird but I do have a logical explanation. See when I have got sick in the past, I have used this as an excuse to eat whatever I liked. Comfort food as such, as it made me feel better. However feeling like this, I don’t feel like eating at all, so that is why I prefer it to be this type of illness.
By midday I was feeling much better. I had a small amount of pork crackle for a snack. I worked until about 7 O’clock and then came home for dinner. Leanne had made those delicious buns again and we had steakette and egg burgers with hollandaise sauce. It was absolutely delicious and because I had not eaten much all day one wasn’t enough, so I had a second. I felt guilty after this because i felt over full although satisfied.
So first thing this morning I took a photo of myself to try and compare to the photo I took of myself at the start of the journey. Really I don’t think I could see much difference. All this really means to me is that when you are extremely obese an a 11 kilo weight loss makes stuff all difference. Having said that I have noticed a difference in my clothes so at least I have that. Anyway I will put both photos up and you can make your own decision on if the difference is noticeable.
Actually after editing them and putting them together like this I can see the difference. I have trimmed the beard since to, this could help lol.
The rest of the day followed the same pattern as most other days. No breakfast, a pork crackle snack mid to late morning and lunch around 3 o’clock of keto quiche and salad.
Dinner time was a different story as I was home which has been unusual on Thursdays of late. I attempted to make a keto flatbread to serve with some lamb, garlic and herb sausages. I successfully made the recipe but like a lot of keto breads we have tried it tasted like eggs. It is not a big deal the bread roll recipe Leanne has been using is a big hit, but I would like to find a decent flat bread recipe. All in all the meal was delicious though. The only major drama was the grazing I was doing while making dinner, which might come back to bite me. Not to mention the keto meringue snacks Taylah made which I also ate to many of.
I managed another 20 minute walk again today.
Another pretty boring day again today. No breakfast as usual. A pork crackle snack about 11. I had lunch around 3:30. It was leftovers from last nights steak and salad. Then off to Ipswich for Taylah’s cricket training. We got home about 9 O’clock. Leanne had deboned some chicken thighs and served them with I don’t know what really (as she was already in bed) over the top and a side of cauliflower and broccoli. It was quite good and I was happy with the thighs as I prefer them over breasts (only on chickens though).
I went for a 20 minute walk while Taylah was training and tomorrow I hope to remember to take a comparison photo of myself to see if I can notice any difference.
I am still on a high from yesterdays weigh in. I find myself looking in the mirror to see if I can notice a difference. It might be time for a photo comparison to the one I took at the start of this process.
I had a small amount of pork crackle chips for a snack around 10 this morning. I didn’t have lunch until about half past 2, which was ham and salad. Leanne had to work later than normal so when I got home from cricket training I decided to cook something like I did last Tuesday. So I made a salad and tossed through my famous big mac sauce. Then I cooked some steak and made a creamy sauce of onion, mushroom and ham. It was delicious and very filling.
After my successful weight loss this week I feel like i have lost the intensity I had last week. I need to be aware of this. If I am not I might make mistakes that harm my progress. I have mentioned it before how being successful can make you be lax, but I feel like this is something more. I can’t put my finger on it exactly but it feels like I have more success when I am willing it to happen. I know that sounds ridiculous but it is the feeling I get.
I managed to get a 20 minute walk in today as well.
Here it is. The day we, well at least me wait for every week. Will it be a good result, will it be depressing. There is only one way to find out and thats by doing it. Drum roll please…… 124.6 kgs!!!!!! Thats a loss of 2.4 kgs, I couldn’t be happier!! Not only is it a good loss, it has got me under the next goal in my weight and over the next goal in weight loss. What I mean is I am under 125, thats great. Also I have now lost a combined total of 11.3 kgs, so I am over 10 kgs of total loss. Now I am aiming for 122 kgs. A strange number I know, but it has significance for me, as being a weight I use to hover at for quite a long time. I will also aim for 15 kgs total loss. No time limit on these aims, as I have said before that generally leads to failure and a feeling of negativity about yourself.
I was on a high for the rest of the day after that result. I had breakfast of sausages around half past 10. I was quite full from breakfast so I didn’t eat my lunch until about half past 6. It was a keto quiche with salad. I worked late and wasn’t home until after 9. Leanne had made a stroganoff type dish with the leftover roast lamb from last night. She had also made some cauliflower rice to go with it. Just a little bit in case we didn’t like it. It was pretty good, so I am looking forward to trying it again.
I got a 20 minute walk in while waiting for Caitlin to finish work. I am still not pushing for more exercise at this stage. As long as the weight loss keeps happening I will be happy with what I am doing. Once it slows down I will push myself to do more. I am still having knee issues and I think the more weight I can get off before pushing harder, the better for my knee it will be.
So as I mentioned in my last post I went to bed at 3 and was up at 7. So as you can imagine I was quite tired Saturday morning. Sleep is something I have struggled with over the years but I have had help with it in the last couple of years that have made it much better. So at this stage I wasn’t concerned about it. I heated up my burger for breakfast, it was even better than yesterday, the headed off to cricket.
I had some issues at cricket in the morning thanks to my teams opponents and their parents complaining about the umpiring. It weighed heavily on me after the match and I felt like I was close to bursting into tears. Thats when I did start to worry about my lack of sleep. It was likely I was falling into another bout of depression. Later in the day I would be even more sure.
When we got home from cricket I had a egg and salad lettuce wrap which I am sure was delicious but I was really eating without realising as I worried about the mornings events. I decided to make an unofficial l complaint at this stage and sent a long message explaining everything to the club president. I thought this might help me to feel better, but it didn’t have much effect at all.
I then headed down town where Leanne and the kids were. The kids were to busy to realise but Leanne realised something wasn’t right. This is where I knew I become even more sure that things weren’t right. We were in the food court and all I wanted to do was go to the chinese restaurant and pig out on all my favourites. I didn’t though, I was able to stay strong, but how long will I be able to if I fall into a deep state of depression?
When we got home I shared a bag of pork crackle with Leanne and the kids and then had a nap. We all went to watch Taylah play and umpire netball that evening and got home around 9. Knowing this would be the case we had preplanned dinner and bought a hot chook when we were out earlier. I enjoyed our dinner of chicken and salad and went straight to bed.
The good news is I slept well even though I was up early for Taylah and I to travel to Brisbane. An hour earlier than normal as she had to be there an hour earlier. I was still tired though as I kept on nodding off on the way, luckily Taylah is good at driving now that it’s not a problem although I would rather not have nodded off.
I ate some pork crackle chips throughout the day while watching her play. Around 1 I had leftover chicken and salad for lunch. We left Brisbane around 4. We stopped to get a drink at a fuel station and I got another packet of pork crackle as I was really hungry. I felt guilty after eating it though.
We got home around quarter to 6 and the house smelled delicious as Leanne was cooking a roast lamb. We ate relatively early and Leanne had also made a keto cheesecake for dessert that I was looking forward to. Unfortunately I didn’t like it so I didn’t eat mine. Everyone else ate theirs so it mustn’t have been to bad.
I went to bed quite early and I was thinking Saturday may have just been a bad day due to the lack of sleep as I felt content with things. I was looking forward to weighing in tomorrow. I feel like I am going to get a good result. I am not sure why, I just do, I feel slimmer for some reason.
Had a sleep in this morning which was well needed. When I woke up I cooked some sausages for breakfast then went to work. It was a fairly basic day otherwise. I ate my lunch of chicken and salad about 3 O’clock and then didn’t eat anything again until I got home from work at about 10.
Caitlin had decided to make bacon cheeseburgers using the bread roll recipe Leanne used last weekend served with keto onion rings. Burgers were a hit, onion rings didn’t really work the way the recipe said they would. They were still onions though, which I love, so I ate them. Taylah had pizza for dinner at work so she didn’t want her burger, so I claimed it and wrapped it in foil to have for breakfast.
I was up to the early hours of the morning because I just couldn’t sleep. I ate half a pack of pork crackle at some stage. I went to bed at 4 am and was up at 7 very tired.
I’ve been feeling hungrier as the week has gone on, so I actually had breakfast this morning. I cooked up some sausages but was to lazy to cook eggs lol. So just sausages it was.
For lunch it was some leftovers from last nights dinner which was just as good as last night which I had around midday. I was feeling quite full after and this was a little worrying to me. Strange I know feeling full is what I should want. However it isn’t really. What I want to feel is not hungry. Now when I feel full I also feel guilty because I think I have eaten to much. I don’t know whether it just a psychological thing or a just feeling. Right now I don’t want to concern myself with it though.
By this afternoon I didn’t just eat to much of what I am allowed to, i ate something I am not suppose to. Caitlin made these shortbread biscuits for Home Economics at school today. They looked so good and I know I shouldn’t have but I did. It had nothing to do with hunger. I just wanted to eat it. I knew this was going to happen if these bloody kids kept bringing in their junk food. At least that’s the excuse I want to run with in my mind, but in truth I know the real reason is my weakness. I should point out though it was a really minor infringement. The biscuits are very small and I only had one bite out of it. The damage should be minimal if not non-existent. But you know if I am not happy with my results on Monday I just know I will be thinking the fault comes from this moment.
I worked late tonight and while I was out I stopped off at Ben’s place who was grilling some chicken breasts on the BBQ for his dinner. He is a great cook and always wanting people to taste his food. Lately I haven’t been able to taste some of his things due to keto, but I was able to try the chicken breast and it was delicious. I will be giving these a go at home at some stage.
It was after half past 10 by the time I got home and I was starving. Waiting for me was a plate of bacon, scrambled eggs and mushrooms stuffed with feta. I enjoyed it immensely and was just what I needed to finish a long day.